God's Expectations of our Conversations with Him.

In my previous post about my troubles with giving Satan a foothold, I wrote that it began when I started questioning my own prayers. I didn't feel that I measured up to those around me when praying at my ladies bible study group.  Their prayers were beautiful and heartfelt.  When I take the time to write and ponder on my thoughts, I can come up with beautiful words and express myself.  When I am on the spot with others watching and hearing me- my brain shuts down.  Does this happen to you too?  As my prayer progresses I begin to forget what I already prayed, suddenly I will just stop, never knowing if I even complete a thought process.  My prayers just seems to fall short of everyone else.  I know that I am supposed to be talking to God-the one whom I love so much.  I shouldn't be concerned about what others think.  This is a topic that has been talked about many times in various circles I have been in, so I know I am not the only one who struggles with it.  
Now that I know that I need to keep my routine of praying, which as I have designed it, are specific written out scripture prayers.  I asked God to show and teach me what He expects during my prayer time.  The first thing I heard was, "I know the intentions of your heart--just love me with "all of it" and focus on that love." God knows my heart and that I believe with all of it- the power of praying scripture.  He honors and welcomes those prayers as much as any of the others.  When I pray in public from now on, I plan to say a prayer between Him and myself declaring my love for Him and ask that He helps me to keep my focus on that love.  He is there, fully present when two or more are gathered together in His Name.  Keeping in mind too that we all love God and our focus is truly on Him.  When words come from our heart for God and those we are praying for they "ALL" are beautiful.
The other thing I plan to do in addition to reading my scripture prayer, is praying out loud for 10-15 minutes a day.  Knowing how I work- I believe that hearing myself praying out loud will help me to get over my voice and myself.  This will get me into a habit of praying out loud from my heart--Lord willing I will do the same in public.  
I have always wanted to be a prayer warrior, praying on behalf of everyone I come into contact with.  Writing about prayer has renewed a desire to pursue it with determination and to strengthen my skills throughout the rest of my life.  Some people have called me a prayer warrior already, but I want to pursue it from a stand point that God would consider me as one.  I am home all the time and praying for others will take my mind off myself, drawing my heart closer to those within the reach of my life.  I have had bouts in the past with depression and I know full well that focusing on God and others help to defeat the stronghold of depression.  
May you and I both, "today" move into the love of talking to God from our hearts to the point that it doesn't matter what others think of our words, but instead draws them into wanting that love relationship with God for themselves too.  Maybe you don't have that love relationship yet?  God is calling you?  He will take you a simple step at a time.
I love the diversity of learning from others and getting different perspectives.  If you have read this and have anything to add or a different experience that enlightened you to further your Spiritual Growth in regards to prayer, please feel free to post a comment and share.